tears drop and i just cant stop it

Okay, i admit... maybe i just cross the line too far this time. But, its not because iam not loving you, just i dont know why. i dont know why. Okay, if you want to put all the blame on me. FINE, i will accept it. But it is true?? Okay, just put all those thing beside.

Hmmm, we almost two years honey! And sadly, this month. Do you remember that? Macamane kamu boleh cakap i wont ever love this relationship anymore? How could you???? If Iam not appreciate and LOVE OUR relationship, then how we are still together until now? tell me honey! tell me!

Iam trying my best to persuade you. Iam trying my best! But, i hope you understand me better. Iam having my finals started on this Monday, and i dont want our relation and this problems affect my finals. Please honey? Iam trying to get a good result and kamu pun perlu bantu sayang kan?? Kamu sendiri yang suruh orang study and sambung degree then what? You know whats our planning rite? *take a deep breath.

Honey, iam still crying here and nobody with me right now. Iam alone here. My others friend they are all busy, and orang pun takkan nak ganggu mereka with all my tears? And all the time i need you because, you always there for me even sometimes sayang kecik hati dengan kamu sebab busy with doing other things, but yang penting, i know you are there. i know you are there always for me rite?

And i still can hear you said, you wont let me go if anything happens. do you remember that?? Ohh terase jantung nak pecah and nak hantuk kepala kat dinding. Tapi insyallah, pemikiran yang sedikit waras (because i cant think anything at all accept you) and ingatan dari Nya, insyallah i wont do all the stupid things. *sayang, tell me what i have to do?

I know, people will see that iam begging you like hell. But i dont even care, they can say whatever they want! because they didnt know anything what we have gone through together. and i love you with NO reason! NO REASON! Because if we do truly love someone, kita takkan pernah dapat bagi jawapan kenapa kite sayang seseorang tu bukan? Susah senang everything kita dah lalui, and i know, two years already together semua perkara kita dapat atasi kan?I dont care if they said, iam dumb. i dont care.

Just what the important thing to me is YOU. Hmmm, bila kita betul-betul sayang seorang, kita akan cuba terima baik buruknya bukan? And thats what iam doing for you. Just maybe, kadang-kadang orang terlepas pandang perkara tu, and iam not a perfect person, then.... Ohh i dont know how to describe it.

Iam still trying to persuade you. Hopefully, you accept all my apology. Do you hun??? *iam shaking here. and i dont know why.

*still terase kamu datang jumpe sayang
around 2 minggu yang lepas.

duh, just past two weeks? kenapa
terasa dah bertahun tak jumpe kamu?
isk.

p/s : jika itu ketentuan-Nya

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to cik nadia : thanx temankan aku syg! kalo
ko takde, aku taktau nak larii mane. and please
sokong aku, walau ape pun keputusan aku kay?
if aku tak pernah bgtau ape reasonnya,
kau taukan aku akan buat ape kata hati aku?
even ikut kata hati mati. tapi, itu realitinya syg. hmm

to atup : it's not easy to just LET GO of things when
you have been around it for such a long time.
*honey, aku i admit ur statement nih. but,
i know, you lebih terase sebab you lagi lame kan?
and please jgn berpura-pura kuat, we are not
iron ladies hun! :)

nak tgk ironman tunggulaa aku!

*sigh.